Inside The Club Extravaganza - After A Long While 5

I felt my sling bag slung at the shoulders being stuck as if caught at the sling but not knowing what can be catching it. I turned around to check to see a laughing Dierdre pulling the bag at the back of me. She looked fabulous considering the half century mark and I was hard to recognize at first if not for her characteristic gay or joyful laughter. Prince did mention at prior that Dierdre changed profession to become a hostess when she was before a mummy or Lounge Manageress but I did not quite believe, yet, there was she - truly resplendent and more than proper - for a glamorous dancing lass. And she was beautiful that my heart stirred like times before and a score years plus ago - of a girl so comely and quick on the steps whilst stepping to dances of various types and genres. The fact also that she looked ageless and not a tiny bit weather beaten. Together with her sunny personality - Dierdre - just scores the part - 110 percent. Top dancers do make the buck if compared to mummies and of whom rely mostly on tips but lovely boogie gals may even reach higher part of four to five figures in stark cash monthly and what can Dierdre be lack of if not the complete knowledge of what traits to acquire in order to reach the pinnacle. Dierdre luxuriates in the knowledge that she did a perfect makeover on herself. I think for the money and ne'er anything else as what else a young grandma would ask for but more than ample greenbacks - perchance? I did a lengthy think about on Dierdre after bumping into her in order to grasp what little bit that she did the change - a tad why to a sentient question difficult to appease perhaps? Existentialists construct meanings to their existences and from a rather meaningless states of consciousness and thenceforth could find reasons as to their predicaments or whatever solutions to appease. Existentialist start with zero in belief  and builds towards their inner universe of what that can construct signification into their entire being ness. God does not strike them terse but just as an afterthought. Nihilists on the other hand is more political when entire systems banished for things newfangled and revolutionary but Dierdre the existentialist explore meanings - meaningful and profitable - plus much to her existence - ontologically and less of essence: psychologically. The fact also that she could bedutiful in observing daily prayers - in private but in public she puts up a charade of tantalizing show girls. Be that God is truly subjective to her and innermost the realm - she seeks sublimed peace. No one can know except her. Phenomenology wise but phenomenology also repels God that he need not exist but tries ever so hard to justify a pseudo one. Or that Cartesian afterthought of I gather therefore I am or am such from all doubts at initial of what constitute his thoughts. Or that I was apprehensive but I can think thence I am because I think so. Kant elaborate upon things known and things in itself - impossible to know....Husserl about ness of things and ideas grasped but academic only and Heidegger's personal and mysterious about perceptions and objects in mind among others. Still God remains elusive and food for thought only. Sartre took the cake when metaphors on God creating from nothing and nothing exists or God exist to not exist. Finishing all with nothingness and not really nothing to nothing but nothing to hope to aspire and to become utterly despondent that noting or nothingness the only will left and the sole reason in existing and in its own sphere. An ontology bars nothing, nothingness and nihilty. However I always pray and asks my God for peace for sustenance and for a glorious after life. For the nothing that's besides or in front is him.....