Reminiscing

Roxana called to meet but this there was intense seriousness in her the likes of having something important to say and must not be over the phone. Couldn't be pregnant I thought to myself as I did not even touched her let alone other things. Even Bella is still intact as far as I know as the same case with Roxana I haven't done anything to tarnish their reputations let alone their entire being ness. Philosophers of old would comment on love even though love that they quipped having only utility and utilitarian in most if not all in the their pontifications. However my love for both Roxana and Bella is love for the other or my other that would complement me as a whole or my other that would say more about me or that can substantiate my existence the while as a man with something accompanying as ever and forever more. I was looking for a Missus to live immortality in that our kids should they arrive be our continuity and our legacies - in their minutest and testaments to our sojourns upon mother planet - Earth. Such high aspirations but what that they cannot be if to live the temporal then and as humans that need pass a cycle. Time was cyclical and a cycle of youth to complete into manhood cum womanhood and to live and breed if the words were to sound hard and coarse. But that was the notion what was with the sex organs excitedly vibrating and eager to procreate all the more. Yet there were the customs and rites to follow and that they can totally not do without. Yet, Roxana was seeking an ultimatum that I gave decision as the family had introduced a suitor so suiting and so nice for her. But her emotions was for me and she need confirmation and for me not to procrastinate any more. You see Roxana was adamant and she showed that disposition throughout our brief relationship and I totally appreciated that and in fact was thinking towards her direction howsoever needed a bit more time to prepare for the eventual moment. Oh Roxana the Malay beauty - kinda hazel and acquiescing and Bella - so fair and of mixed parentage - occidental and orient. Howsoever Bella was so young and unsure when Roxana - matured and responsible. Seeing that Roxana was in a hurry as such I had to let her go in order for her to meet and marry a better man. The very next day Bella called to immediately end things and for reasons entirely her own. Later that I came to know that she was actually young and confused. But she had youth with her and so the issue was it wasn't an issue. But a broken man that I became having lost two for the the price of none but my heart. Consequently that I wander alone and lost till I found hibiscus the dangdut dancing lounge plus meeting lovely Sherry that healed my wound but that was another story and one below upon my long list of posts in my dangdut blog. Please surf earlier post for the Sherry story..hohohohoho